Last Christmas Program in Michigan...

RMES Singers

This was taken at PMC on December 19, 2009.

We had Game Night this past Sabbath evening before everyone left for the holidays.

We had a blast playing Wink, Mofia, a Japanese game... "fruit basket! ahhhh!" lol,

psychology and Wii games.

HEALTH CHALLENGE 2009-2010!!!

Started a 5-month Health Challenge a few days ago!

I realized that I'm needing accountability and a community to get going again. This time though I trying to form a bigger community rather than a small one. Let's see if it will turn out to be a larger community.

Rough start so far but it's making good choices every day! Today's another day.

My goals are developing good habits and lose between 20 to 28 lbs by the end of the Challenge.

Success

The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs.

But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called JESUS, you will make it to a placed called Success.

~I was surfing through a friend's collection of pictures when I came across this and thought it was neat!~

gray skies...

We received sad news two weeks ago. Both my maternal and paternal grandfathers suffered a stroke one day after the other. On the Wednesday, my Lolo (Mama's dad) had a stroke and cannot move the left side of his body. On the following day, (which was Thanksgiving and our Anniversary) my Mama called to tell me that Papatrop (my Papa's dad) also suffered a stroke and was also paralyzed on the left side. It was a bit hard to take a day after each other. The distance separating us seemed even farther and greater. I wanted so badly to go home to the Philippines to see them. It's been difficult these past two weeks especially for my parents. It's been hard seeing my Ma cry. I'm praising and thanking God that my parents will be able to go home to visit with them. Praise God!

Both grandfathers are still in the hospital. I'm not quite sure to what extend the damage is but they both have a long and hard road to recovery. I wish I could do more to help. I wish I could provide for all their needs. I know God can and He will. I've been telling myself this whole time that I will not and refuse to ask God why my Lolo when he's the kindest and most generous man I know. They have very very little but yet they give so much. Oh, God have mercy on me! But recently, I've been really wishing that I had lots of money so I can take the load off their shoulders. I know that having lots of money isn't the answer but it would definitely help! I've been fighting the feeling of regret that I wasn't still working in the legal field because I know had I still been working, I would be able to afford to send money. =( However, I do recognize that apart of my frustration this past week or so has been the fact that I (Me) cannot do anything to make it better. That apart from prayer and trusting in God, I cannot DO anything! That it is God's job to make it better!

I am thankful. I am hopeful. And I know that His plan is to "proper" us and "not to harm" us, "plans to give (us) hope and a future." This is a great comfort to us! He is in control!!! Relying on God for strength, comfort, and assurance of the future. Our God is powerful!

Thanksgiving with Family

It was such a blessing to be able to go home and be with family for Thanksgiving!

We spent Thanksgiving morning with our church family here in Berrien Springs, Michigan then drove to Toronto to spend the weekend with family. I really enjoyed our weekend. Even though we didn't get to see much of our close friends, I really enjoyed our family time. We got to see family from California visiting and local family that we haven't seen for a while. I didn't realize how much I missed them until we saw them!

It was also a very productive weekend. We were able to meet our son's new principal for the next school year and go home hunting in Oshawa. May God continue to guide us especially as we transition into a new place.

9 years ago... I married my best friend!!!

Having Thanksgiving fall on the same day as our Anniversary is just perfect! I'm so very thankful for God's blessings in our lives. For the gift of our marriage and having a wonderful husband!

It certainly doesn't feel like 9 years. It seems like it wasn't too long ago we got married. We were soooo young back then. =) We've certainly grown as the years went by and our love has gotten stronger and more mature. I love being married to this man. He is kind, generous, loving, patient and full of laughter. He just loves to make me laugh. He is a man that searches after God and this I am so thankful for.

What a gift from God... to be able to journey through life with this amazing man! Thanking the Lord for so much this Thanksgiving!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, my dearest Love!

Happy Thanksgiving to all!!!

Apple Crisps (no sugar)

This recipe is from a friend, Joya, who has been such a blessing in my journey to better health. And just like Joya, I don't have specific measurements for the ingredients so you'll have to play around with it. =) For the apples, I used about 10 or so small apples.

Apple Crisps

Crust

Oatmeal, uncooked (quick oats are good)

Olive oil or soybean olive oil

100% Apple juice concentrate, thawed (the frozen juices) *you can also use any other flavors*

Coconut, unsweetened (optional)

Mixture of nuts, small pieces or to preferred size (sunflower seeds, pecan, walnuts, almonds, cashews)

Vanilla extract

Pre-heat oven at 350. In a bowl, mix thoroughly the above ingredients. *The concentrate juice only put about 1/3 cup unless you like it really sweet then put a little more* Then grease a baking pan. Place half of the oatmeal mixture into the pan. Press down with spoon to pack it into the pan. This will be your crust. Bake it for 10 to 15 minutes or until it's a little brown/golden.

Filling

Apples, peeled and sliced (if you have organic apples, you don't have to peel them if you prefer w/ skin)

100% Apple juice concentrate (use the rest of the can)

Cornstarch (for thickening)

Vanilla extract

In a sauce pan, pour apple juice concentrate (leaving some juice in the can to mix with the cornstarch), apples, and vanilla extract. Bring to a boil. Stir constantly. You can add a little water if you like. Mix the cornstarch and the remaining juice in the can then add to the apples. The liquid will eventually thicken. Continue to cook until the apples are soft (not too soft that it breaks apart easily). Then set aside. You can add nuts in this mixture too.

Take the crust out of the oven. Scoop up all apples from the sauce pan and place on top of the crust. Then pour the sauce on top. (I didn't like too much sauce so I only poured a little more than half of the sauce) Then sprinkle evenly the rest of the oatmeal mixture on top. Then bake for 20 minutes or until golden. (I drizzled a bit of the sauce on top)

I really enjoyed this dessert. It's sweet and yummy. And it's healthy! =) Hope you like it.

my sunshine

11 years ago this fresh ray of sunshine came into my life! And it's never been the same since. He's a constant sunshine in our lives. A GREAT blessing he is!

What a joy to watch him grow. So gratifying to see Jesus' love in him!

I'm so proud of this kid. His strength, perseverance, positive attitude, compassion, and happy nature constantly amazes me! His ability to bounce right back when life hands him a blow is a gift only God can give.

This precious child is a constant reminder of God's mercy... of His great and undying love... and His blessings.

I pray that he continues to find strength and wisdom from God. That he finds his value and true identity in His Saviour. And that he be used greatly for His Maker and finds success in the eyes of God and not man!

It continues to be an incredible privilege to be this child's mother. To witness a miracle daily.

Praise God!

staying motivated

This week should be Week 3 of my C25K journey but the last time I tried Week 3, I was scared I was going to injure myself and I was in better shape back then. So I'm tweaking it a bit... lessing the running time and all that. So this week is Week 2 1/2. =)

My arthritis has been flaring up a lot lately but I'm praising God because in spite of this, I'm making strides. =) I just have to continue eating well and drinking lots of water to help with this.

Since making the decision to stay away from sugar, I'm staying committed. Praise God! My friend has given me an amazing recipe for Apple Crisp w/ no sugar and it's sooo sweet. Plus, I've got Carob covered peanuts with no milk or sugar and so if I'm absolutely wanting something sweet other than fruits... I've got alternatives.

I'm still around mid to low 150s. It seems that it's taking me forever to break through the 150 but I have to mentally remind myself daily if not hour by hour (some days) that it's not a race! lol. Old habits die hard! It's about staying consistent and temperate today!

Sabbath is a happy day!

God is so awesome! He knew we needed a day that we can come away from this world and think nothing of it. =)

I'm praise God for the Sabbath. =) I'm looking forward to seeing my brothers and sisters-in-Christ and to worship our Creator as a family. What a blessing to come together and share with each other God's many blessings of the past week.

Happy Sabbath!

Holy... Holy...

This is one of my favourite songs! This past Sabbath we worshiped at PMC (Pioneer Memorial Church) at Andrews University campus. I was immensely blessed by the worship. We were really praise the Lord and what an amazing experience... just lifting up our praises to God!

Alleluia

Alleluia

For the Lord God Almighty reigns

Alleluia

Alleluia

For the Lord God Almighty reigns

Alleluia

Holy

Holy are You Lord God Almighty

Worthy is the Lamb

Worthy is the Lamb

You are holy

Holy are you Lord God Almighty

Worthy is the Lamb

Worthy is the Lamb

Amen

Grand Canyon Dec 2008

I was looking at my pictures and found several videos of our lonnngggg drive to California. This was our first stop after driving for a day and a half straight. My husband, Allen, was taking this video and the voice you hear in the background is our son, Allen jr. He was bouncing off "the walls" and what kid wouldn't after being in a car for that long! LOL.

tiny little black book...

I carry this tiny little notebook in the pocket of my Bible bag. I jot notes in it from sermons or things that affected me during devotions, seminars, and even conversations. Today, I decided to look through it coz it's been a while since I've read through my notes. And one of the highlighted part caught my attention and it said, "People should not be drawn to God because of our "services" but that they should be drawn to God because of our lives." And I thought whoever said that was exactly right! It's the way we live that will bring glory to Him... it is what will ultimately witness to others and bring evidence to His goodness, mercy and love!

This past Sunday, at Bible study, we spoke about how recognizing our weaknesses and surrendering our daily desires and control of our lives to Him is the only way that He can truly truly help us. Often times, I think I'm doing something to help God along with the "fixing" of myself. Somehow I must've thought that I could "help" God change my sinful heart and worldly mind. When the truth really is I'm often times, if not always, hindering Him.

I've been on this journey of "trying" to change my lifestyle. I was very concerned that if I cannot be victorious in living the instructions of the Father then I would've failed in what I know God's purpose was for me... for us, which is to share His gospel by the lives we live. How can I possibly share and to testify about God and His health message when I'm almost 30 lbs. over weight! Yes, there is always that "vain" part of the deal. I can try to deny that but, really, who am I fooling?! But there is in me an urgency and a much greater importance than just weight but health. To be healthy by God's terms and not the world's. That I may glorify Him and be a witness inside out.

But you see, I've been doing it wrong lately. I realize that my "I" complex is becoming prominent again. There's been too many "I"s lately. I've been relying so much on my strength to resist temptation. I've been relying on the one person that can and will guarantee my failure and that is me! Instead of surrendering completely I merely give God temporary reign to my whole being until I feel more in control. When I don't feel completely helpless anymore, I often rudely grab the reigns back from God and say, "thanks, Lord! See you later!" I do this over and over and over again and every single time I can just picture the Lord calling out to me to just hold on and be patient and to let Him help me. But no, you see, I'm so arrogant and so superior that I know what's best... well no not completely... God told me but really I only half listened to what I wanted it to be and didn't even let God finish telling me what to do because I think that I already know what He's going to say! What a stupid and foolish girl I am!!! Not very smart, huh?! And it's so shameful that it isn't even me who cleans up after myself and pulls me back together but it's Him... it's Him who picks me up after I've fallen too deep and helpless.

I know that I need to be living and practicing what I believe and that this is important but right now... I really need to take a step back and re-prioritize. I need to focus on continuing (not "trying" because that word seem to sound like there is a doubt or an eventuality of failing) to practice and be more intentional about submitting myself to God. I don't think I've been really doing that. I need to not finish God's sentences for Him and let Him tell me, guide me and show me, one baby step at a time, how to truly submit to His will, His thoughts, His desires, His strength, His discipline, His path, and esp. His time. And somehow, I believe that as I practice this daily, He will put in me the kind of change and genuine passion for His people that I so greatly desire. Then I wouldn't need to "work" for the evidence that will manifest itself in me... in my life. And that evidence will draw people to God because they will only see what He has done in my life.

Back to G for Godly Trust.

Lord, my desire is to daily trust in You and to learn to completely surrender myself to You moment by moment of each day. And when I fall, Father, I will hold on to You and your promise that "... (You) who began a good work in (me) will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Phil 1:6

On the horizon...

I have truly enjoyed my 2 years and 5 months "break" living here in Berrien Springs, Michigan. The beauty of Berrien Springs quite astounds me. Not just because it's quiet. Not just because there are so much trees, hiking trails, beaches, and not even just the solitude of the place. But rather everything that it represents for me... the whole package.

Coming here in 2007, I knew it was going to be soooo incredibly different from my usually hectic life. Working at a law firm doesn't exactly give you much break and time to just "sit and relax". Even during lunch time or social events at work or even at home, I'm constantly mentally ticking off my "to do list". The last firm I was with wasn't so bad. I wasn't staying until 9 p.m. or later and never had to come in on Sundays. So it was good but still very very hectic. Honestly, I don't even think in the 7 years of me working as a Legal Assistant/Clerk that I had very much family quality time. What a sad thing to realize. Imagine what I missed all those years with my dear husband and son!

Our first few months here were great and frustrating! I felt like someone shook my life and put it upside down... my world was spinning around me and I didn't know which direction to go. For the first time in my life, I didn't HAVE to do something. I didn't have to make sure I stayed on top of things and had a good job. Actually, I didn't have to have a job. That was tough... it was like I was going crazy coz I wasn't stressed! Yeah... I know! Nuts!!! My life here was so foreign I didn't know what to make out of it. I rebelled against "relaxing" for months. I tried looking for jobs... babysitting or volunteering but God closed every single one of those doors! And oh boy... was I frustrated! But He NEEDED me to learn to slllllooooowwww down. To learn to take one step at a time knowing that this was crucial for me to practice for this is what He plans to do... for me to take one step at a time with Him in whatever comes my way.

So I learned to slow down. I learned to cook well. (Praise God!) I learned to NOT stress out (still relearning this once and a while). I learned that time was a friend not an enemy. lol. I learned how much God is so much bigger and majestic than what I thought He was. I learned to submit to Him even when I really didn't want to and I unlearned to be stress. Oh man... this place is where I learned about life and it's purpose. It's where I got to experience growth and changes that only God can bring. I have a long way to go but oh my Jesus knows how far I've come! I believe these are the main reasons I love this place so much. It's a place of healing from within. It's my "therapy"!

And wow, this "therapy" is almost over! 7 more short months to go and our "break" will be over. It will be a test of our faith, our patience, and our character. I do hope that what God has done here... will carry us through what is to come. No... I don't hope... I believe it will carry us through! =) I will surely surely miss this place and the people that became my family. A part of me with always long for this "home"... always!

But I believe... it's about that time to move on. To see what God's bidding is for us and the changes that are ahead, not just in our surroundings but within ourselves and our relationship with Him. I am anxious to see family more often. To witness and participate in the lives of my nephews, brothers, sisters, and friends. I am anxious to see God's wonderful hands at work in the people He loves. To see the look of wonder and excite in someone's face who just realized and found the joy of knowing the Father or the look of hope and complete joy on someone's face who's been reunited with their Saviour!

I look forward to this new start, new beginning... it will be a starting over. We are returning "home" but it will not be like it used to. It's going to be different... better because we are returning different people with different sets of eyes that sees differently... that sees better!

I see hope, joy, love, faith, and miracles on the horizon.

turning away.... not today

I've been neglecting my one-to-one time with God lately. I would wake up and put of my time with God because I had so much stuff to do and didn't have enough time at that moment to spend with Him. I would say I'll do it after I get the family up and off for school but then something always came up that once again it will have to wait until later. However, "later" never happens!

Truthfully, it's no wonder that lately I've been overly worried and my heart's overly burdened. It's because nothing could console it... nothing can lift my spirit... I was not giving it the healing balm that is Jesus to my heart!

So this morning, I found myself again "busy" to get my son off to school and with the things I have to do today that I started off my day without what I really NEEDED which was my time with God. So I stopped whatever chores I was doing and went to Him... so shameful that I could only offer Him an overly burdened and heavy heart. Oh but what a merciful Father He is! His Words were like a fresh breeze on a hot and humid day, like cool water to the thirsty... it was a hug from a loving Father. I'm so glad I spent time with Him today!

I was reading Hebrews 3 & 4 this morning. It spoke about Israel's rebellion and what God had to do because of that rebellion. What struck me was the words "Today when you hear His voice, don't harden your hearts..." I wonder how many times have I hardened my heart to the calling of His Spirit. How many times have I said, "Not now Lord, I'm too busy!" Has this "hardening" or turning of my heart away from the Lord become a habit? Do I do this without even consciously choosing to turn away from Him because it's become a reaction? Mercy! What a scary thought!!!

Today, I made a conscious choice... a promise that I will not harden my heart to the calling of the Lord. Furthermore, I will intentionally listen to His voice today!

Hebrews 3:12 and 13 says, "Be careful then, dear brothers and sisters. Make sure that your own hearts are not evil and unbelieving, turning you away from the living God. You must warn each other every day, while it is still "today," so that none of you will be deceived by sin and hardened against God."

wobble... wobble...

After 5 days of not working out and taking care of a sick boy, I finally dragged myself to the gym today. And oooohhhh boy, did I feel that 5-day rest!!!

I started Week 3 of the C25K today and well, I just wanted to sit on the floor and take a nice long break in the middle of my workout! Yikes. I usually do another 10 to 20 minutes of running/speed walking than what the program calls for but today, NOPE, I only did what they asked me to do. I was struggling that badly. Aaaarrrrggggghhhh!

So, I guess I'll be staying on Week 3 for hmmm.... I don't know 3 to 4 weeks. When my body gets used to this, then I'll move on. Sounds like a good plan? Yeah, I think so too! LOL.

Praises today: My boy is back to school and feeling well, I actually workout today, and my carpet got steamed today... nice clean carpet courtesy of AU Housing! =) Yay God! Well... let's see what other praises this day brings.

Ohhhh, I've got a BIG Yay God! I'm at 152 lbs. AND I fit into (though a bit snug) 2 of my 2 goal dresses and size 10 jeans!!!!!!!! Wwwooooaaaahhhh! (I'm doing a victory dance! LOl)

50th Birthday Celebrations... a special year indeed!

This year's been a very special and memorable year for both my Papa and Mama. They both celebrated their 50th Birthdays. They have certainly been blessed by God! We had a lot of fun surprising both of them on their birthdays. It was truly blessing to be able to do this for them and to see them enjoy their day with both family and friends. May God continue to bless them with good health and many many more birthdays to come!

Mama's surprise 50th Birthday Celebration. August 22, 2009

Papa's surprise 50th Birthday Celebration. October 18, 2009

I love fall in Michigan! Beautiful colours. =)

Week 2 of C25K

This week is my 2nd week on Week 2 of the C25K (Couch to 5K) program. I do each week twice just to give my body more time to adapt to the changes. So this week, it's running for 90 seconds then walk for 2 minutes. I've been running at the gym now because it's just too cold for me outside. I could probably bundle myself up good and still can run outside but I just dislike putting on too many layers... I feel suffocated! Anyhow, I noticed that I work harder on the treadmill so that's good. I guess I tend to slow down when I run outdoors. But I do miss being outside. It does good for my mind and restores me. =)

Hmmmm... now that I pretty much got the hang of running, I just have to rearrange my schedule to fit in resistance training. That and keeping a guard on my nutrition. I've got to say I've been enjoying too much yummy desserts lately even if they are vegan. I've also got to watch that I don't eat just for the sake of eating. Bad habits... habits... habits die hard! *sigh* I've got to resume juicing at night, which has been a bit difficult lately.

Well, tomorrow's another day! The key is consistency and perseverance!

Temptation...

"...temptation is powerful and so hard to resist but God is even more powerful!" My son said these words as he wrapped up his Children`s Story yesterday at Church.

He shared a story that was once read to him as a little child. It`s a story about a little girl who was given instructions by her mom not to snack late at night. However, one night, she was quite hungry but it was already way past bedtime and she knew what the rules were. But she pictured the juicy, sweet grapes sitting on top of the dinning table waiting there for her and it was just way too tempting. So she crept down to the dinning room and silently grabbed the grapes that were in a bowl. But all of the sudden, she froze for a few seconds and returned the grapes, uneaten, on the bowl. What this little girl didn't know was that her mom was watching her. When her mom saw that she returned the grapes, she hugged her daughter and said, "you won over temptation tonight". =)

You see, this wasn`t just a random story my son picked. He was adamant to share this story to the other kids at church. And the reason for this he said was that, "I too won over temptation today, Mom". =)

It had been a very tough day for him. His Dad and I finally decided to take his DS and Wii games away especially the ones he was quite addicted to. It was a hard decision for us to make as we both know how much our son enjoys playing these games. We explained to him our reasons and told him that we would keep only sports and educational games but nothing else. He was extremely upset, as you can only imagine. In fact, he was so upset that he requested us to give him time alone.

Listening to him sobbing broke my heart. I finally went to him when he asked if I could hold him. I too couldn't stop my own tears from falling. I`m as guilty or even worse because as his Mom, I allowed this to happen. He got so addicted to these games. He was even more inconsolable when we told him that we would sell these games. He was begging us not to sell them, to just keep them hidden. I told him that there wouldn't be any reason for us to keep it. It will just serve as a temptation for him. He might not see it but knowing that it's around the house... it would be a huge temptation for him. Temptations are so strong and it order to fight it, we have to get rid of it. The entire time he was sobbing, I just kept praying that the Lord would give him the comfort that he needed. I was calling upon the Lord to cast the devil away and his hold on my son!

Later that afternoon, he finally made the decision to go ahead and sell his games. I know for sure that Jesus helped him win the battle over the devil and his hold on him through these games! Praise God!!!

This was why his little children story was so important for him. It wasn't just a story. It was a testimony that he shared with this little girl. They both won over temptation!!! What a testimony and I pray that he doesn't forget how God delivered him that day!

What a lesson we can take from these children! Though their temptations might seem a trifle thing to us "adults", it was equally as powerful as our temptations. And if these precious little children can win over their temptations and break satan's hold on them through Jesus Christ, so can we!

Yummmy Divan

Some of our closest friends came over to our place on Monday evening to have dinner. Nothing big. Our husbands are quite busy with their studies and so it was a good excuse to have them home for dinner instead of working at the library or plugging away at their computers. =) Plus it was an awesome way for the ladies to get together without making the guys feel left out. LOL.

This is a remake of my Chicken Divan. Since I've turned vegan, I've been trying to remake my old recipes and see if it worked out. This turned out really well. I was more than pleased with it. =)

Vegan Divan

1 large stalk of broccoli, chopped into florets and lightly steamed
2 cups sauted Turkette (in can by Cedar Lake) or any veggie meat or tofu, seasoned
1 can condensed Mushroom Soup

1/2 cup Vegenaise
1 tsp. lemon juice
1/2 cup soft bread crumbs
2 tbsp Earth Balance margarine, melted until liquid
Herbed Tofu Cheese mixture (recipe below)

Herbed Tofu Cheese Mixture:
2 squares of Tofu (or 1 pound)
2 tbsp olive oil
1 tbsp fresh lemon juice
1 tbsp honey
2 tsp garlic powder
1 tsp dried basil
1 tbsp nutritional yeast
~Mash tofu with fork and mix the rest of the ingredients until blended well

Heat oven to 350 F. Grease 12x8 inch baking dish. Arranged lightly steamed broccoli florets at the bottom of the baking dish. Layer sauted Turkette or veggie meat over broccoli. In a separate bowl mix together the mushroom soup, vegenaise, and lemon juice. Then layer this on top of the Turkette and broccoli. Then sprinkle the Herbed Tofu Cheese mixture until it covers the enter dish. In a separate bowl, mix the Earth Balance margarine and bread crumbs. Sprinkle this over the "cheese". Bake for 30 to 4o minutes or until crumbs are golden.

Bon Appétit!!!

Cycling...

I actually went to the gym yesterday evening! Yay God! It's been months since I've been around there. I've been taking advantage of the beautiful weather we've been having. Except lately, it's been well... wet and cold. Yesterday, it was pouring and so I knew I need to head to the gym. I was quite proud that I actually dragged myself there! =)

Anyway, I had a good run on the treadmill but found it difficult to concentrate on the sermon that I usually listen to after my run (which would bring me to an hour walking after). There was too many distractions. It was a bit disappointing. I love my walks after my run as it rejuvinates me both mentally and spiritually. There is nothing like walking outside in God's nature and listening to His inspired messages. It also helps clear my mind and convicts my soul as there aren't any distractions. Now that it's getting cold, I'll have to find a way to get in my walks outside as it isn't possible to really have my quiet time in the busy gym!

Anyway, when my time on the treadmill ended and as I was waiting for my elliptical machine, I walked past the front desk and I heard the word "cycling". So I asked the receptionist if there was a cycling class tonight and she nodded. I was intrigued! I've been wanting to try this class for a while but it just seemed so intimidating. Plus people have told me that cycling was HARD. So I was just going to watch and see how hard it really was. But then I saw the Gym Manager, Elise, who I knew and talk often with and felt more "safe" to join in. I approached the instructor and told her I was interested in joining but I explained that it was my first time. So she walked me through the adjustments to the bike and explained the phrases she'll be using during the class.

So I was there with 6 other ladies and I was thinking, "oh boy, don't hurt yourself girl!". LOL. The last thing I need is an injury not to mention the embarrassment. lol. Plus I wasn't sure if I had anything left in me to put in another good workout as I've already put in a good hour and a half of running and speed walking.

Well... I survived!!! =) It was difficult for sure. There were a few times I thought my body would stop listening to my brain to keep going. LOL. The first time we stood up on the bike, my thighs were not happy and my muscles were definitely letting me know of their displeasure! LOL. But no injuries and, praise be the Lord!, I didn't embarrass myself! =)

I think I'll be looking forward to cycling classes as it's a break from my usual exercise routine. =) Glad I listened and went to the gym last night. =) Praise God!

oh, often do I fall!

During my walks, I've been listening to a good book called Ministry of Healing by Ellen G. White. Yesterday, I was listening to Chapter 5, Healing of the Soul. It was such a balm to my soul!

Often times, I get frustrated with my faults and weaknesses or just eat myself up with guilt over something. As I listened to this chapter, several friends popped into my mind who've shared their anguish and remorse of falling over and over again into temptation, usually the same ones. I too have said this many times. Sometimes, too embarrassed to approach my Father to ask His forgiveness once again. I know there were times when the sorrow was so great and it seemed so impossible to overcome! But there is such hope, isn't there?! There is such a promise and assurance of deliverance and victory over sin and temptation. The Good Book says in Galatians 1:4, "Who gave himself (Jesus) for our sins, that he might deliver us from this present evil world, according to the will of God and our Father". He will deliver us daily and give us His strength when we are weak and tired. "The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower." Psalm 18:2 It is not our ability that causes us to overcome but by His strength and His power that victory is guaranteed. In our weakness, He's power is realized! Because when we are weak and broken, we are more susceptible to His will and His strength.

I was able to find the part of Chapter 5 that really spoke to my heart. I pray that it speaks to yours as well and may it bring hope, joy and comfort to your soul! This part talks about the palsied man beside the pool called Bethesda. This story can be found in the Bible in John 5. The following can be found in pages 84, 85, 89 & 90 of Ministry of Healing.

[pg. 84] Jesus had given the palsied man no assurance of divine help. The man might have said, "Lord, if Thou wilt make me whole, I will obey Thy word." He might have stopped to doubt, and thus have lost his one chance of healing. But no, he believed Christ's word, believed that he was made whole; immediately he made the effort, and God gave him the power; he willed to walk, and he did walk. Acting on the word of Christ, he was made whole.

By sin we have been severed from the life of God. Our souls are palsied. Of ourselves we are no more capable of living a holy life than was the impotent man capable of walking. Many realize their helplessness; they are longing for that spiritual life which will bring them into harmony with God, and are striving to obtain it. But in vain. In despair they cry, "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from this body of death?" Romans 7:24, margin. Let these desponding, struggling ones look up. The Saviour is bending over the purchase of His blood, saying with inexpressible tenderness [pg. 85] and pity, "Wilt thou be made whole?" He bids you arise in health and peace. Do not wait to feel that you are made whole. Believe the Saviour's word. Put your will on the side of Christ. Will to serve Him, and in acting upon His word you will receive strength. Whatever may be the evil practice, the master passion which through long indulgence binds both soul and body, Christ is able and longs to deliver. He will impart life to the soul that is "dead in trespasses." Ephesians 2:1. He will set free the captive that is held by weakness and misfortune and the chains of sin.

The sense of sin has poisoned the springs of life. But Christ says, "I will take your sins; I will give you peace. I have bought you with My blood. You are Mine. My grace shall strengthen your weakened will; your remorse for sin I will remove." When temptations assail you, when care and perplexity surround you, when, depressed and discouraged, you are ready to yield to despair, look to Jesus, and the darkness that encompasses you will be dispelled by the bright shining of His presence. When sin struggles for the mastery in your soul, and burdens the conscience, look to the Saviour. His grace is sufficient to subdue sin. Let your grateful heart, trembling with uncertainty, turn to Him. Lay hold on the hope set before you. Christ waits to adopt you into His family. His strength will help your weakness; He will lead you step by step. Place your hand in His, and let Him guide you.

Never feel that Christ is far away. He is always near. His loving presence surrounds you. Seek Him as One who desires to be found of you. He desires you not only to touch His garments, but to walk with Him in constant communion.

[pg. 89] Jesus knows the circumstances of every soul. The greater the sinner's guilt, the more he needs the Saviour. His heart [pg. 90] of divine love and sympathy is drawn out most of all for the one who is the most hopelessly entangled in the snares of the enemy. With His own blood He has signed the emancipation papers of the race.

Jesus does not desire those who have been purchased at such a cost to become the sport of the enemy's temptations. He does not desire us to be overcome and perish. He who curbed the lions in their den, and walked with His faithful witnesses amid the fiery flames, is just as ready to work in our behalf to subdue every evil in our nature. Today He is standing at the altar of mercy, presenting before God the prayers of those who desire His help. He turns no weeping, contrite one away. Freely will He pardon all who come to Him for forgiveness and restoration. He does not tell to any all that He might reveal, but He bids every trembling soul take courage. Whosoever will, may take hold of God's strength, and make peace with Him, and He will make peace.

The souls that turn to Him for refuge, Jesus lifts above the accusing and the strife of tongues. No man or evil angel can impeach these souls. Christ unites them to His own divine-human nature. They stand besides the great Sin Bearer in the light proceeding from the throne of God.

The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses "from all sin." 1 John 1:7.

"Who shall lay anything to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth. Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us." Romans 8:33, 34."

Michiana Fil-Am Drill Quad at the 2009 AU Parade
Performed their fancy drill that won them 1st place from the
International Pathfinder Camporee at Oshkosh, Wisconsin this past Aug.

Marching with their banner

God's strong enough!

Matthew 11:28-30
"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

Healing and cleansing, that's what I got this weekend!!!

A friend and I talked prior to the weekend and I prayed that I could be a humble vessel that the Holy Spirit can use to comfort this dearest friend. But as the conversation progressed through the night, it seemed that God didn't have just one agenda here. He wanted to surround my friend with comfort and love through human means and to assure my friend of how His grace and mercy can take the ugliness of our lives and turn it all around to be something so beautiful it takes our breath away. Yes, He wanted my friend to let go of her pain and give it to Him to take care of. But I was so surprised that He had a message for me as well. Here, I thought I would be the vessel for His comfort for my friend but I realized God was comforting me too and revealing that I had a burden I didn't realize I was carrying for over a decade.

On Sabbath morning, at church, my heart was heavy with this burden and I realized that I never went to Him for forgiveness. I didn't relinquish the sin and it's ugliness to Him. I do believe that He has forgiven me but for the purposes of healing and cleansing of my soul, I had to go to Him and lay it before Him and ask for His forgiveness and cleansing. As the worship service progressed, every song that was sang or verses that were spoken hit me like a ton of brick and my iniquities were ever before me. I felt shame and sadness that I've hurt God so much and never asked Him for His forgiveness for soooo long. The tears came and I couldn't stop them and in my heart I asked God to forgive me. I fell on my knees during prayer apologizing with incredible regret that I have hurt Him and never really repented for it. I felt His love and forgiveness surround me. My burden no longer stared me at my face... my heart no longer felt so heavy. My heart felt light and His incredible love was in front of me, around me, and deep inside me.

As I listened to a friend sing "Strong Enough", I cried tears of gratitude and joy for His love and His mercy. He truly did as the lyrics said, "He took my life into His hands, and turned it all around. In my most desperate circumstance, is where I'm finally found... that You are strong enough, that You are pure enough, to break me, pour me out and start again, that You are brave enough, to take one chance on me, Oh thank You for my chance to start again."

I am ever thankful to God for revealing this to me for I would have never known of it on my own. =) And I thank my friend, whom I dearly love and care for, for sharing her heart and soul with me.

May God continue to break us and mold us into His being and in the process will make us whole!

"Strong Enough" by Stacie Orrico

As I rest against this cold hard wall, will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war had just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again

Will my weakness fall and and now make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again

He took my life into His hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance, is where I'm finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again