Believe.

My cousin sent this link to me entitled "Fitness Isn't an Overnight Sensation". How true that is! For so long I was always calculating which diet/workout program will get me thin the fastest. It wasn't really about health. It was about the shortest amount of time. Yeah, I went through that phase where what's the easiest way and the least-amount-of-work program to get thin. I was tempted to say "healthy" instead of thin there but who was I kidding... I wasn't really trying to get healthy. Thin doesn't equivalent healthy. I soon realized how crucial it really is to exercise and kick some butt in the gym. lol.

So no quick fixes and easy workouts here! That's a thing of the past now!!! BUT... it's easier said than done. I still find myself calculating ... "if I lose a pound or two a week ... when will I be this weight?" Arrrggghhh! Old habits die hard. I get so frustrated with myself because I have been trying to change my way of thinking about all this. I got to change my lifestyle. Not just for this week or next week or the next 6 months to attain the preferred weight but this is permanent. Heck yeah, I struggle with the fact that it will most likely take me over a year or two to lose 56 lbs.! I struggle with that EVERY DAY! But I need to remember that my health is more important that my weight. It is what's going on inside that worries me. I have to drill it to my head often that when I get healthy... the weight will follow. I've been overweight for 4 years and considered "obese" for over a year or so ... another 8 or 14 months more of looking fat won't make that much of a difference. Seriously, I'm so tired of "pretending" that I'm not fat! It isn't like people don't see me. I'm tired of not liking what I look like... or rather I'm tired of what it makes me feel and what I do to myself. This me... for now... not permanently but it is me right now and I need to be ok with the reality that this is what I look like until I get healthier.

You know for years of doing this cover up thing... compensating for my weight, hasn't been very healthy for me. I realize that I need to be good to this body because it's the only one I've got. God's not gonna give me a replacement. So I've been trying to undo what I've been doing to it for years... giving my body time to heal as I get healthier and not rush it. I have to undo the emotional scars of how I've put myself down and judged myself. I have to change... revamp how I think about food, about my body, about health, about setbacks and frustrations. I want my body to reflect the health inside of me. It's like a purging... I'm cleaning house... inside out. Not only health wise but the whole package... physically, mentally, emotionally, and most of all spiritually. And I BELIEVE it is possible. My strength doesn't come from me but my Father above and so my victory is imminent!!!

Ok so anyway... this article that my cousin sent me just reminded me what reality is for me and these quick fixes out there will not work for me anymore. Here's the link: http://www.nytimes.com/2009/01/22/health/nutrition/22best.html

I'll be making a link to it on the side bars too under fitness.