community and reflections

Over two months ago, my good friend and awesome accountability partner created a private group on Facebook where we can come together and be transparent about our journey to better health and eventually slimmer and stronger bodies. It has been an incredible blessing for me because I get to walk with other ladies that struggle with our love affair (as one of them put it) with food. It's comforting and encouraging that someone else out there knows that it is hard... every day and that every morsel of food that enters my mouth NEED to be a conscious decision. It has been an incredible blessing to get to share and support each other. To cheer each other on and to see lives transform. :)

Blogging has been something I enjoy doing but lately I haven't had the time or rather I haven't been making the time to blog. This morning I quickly scanned through my past blogs and realized that I've been struggling with the same last few pounds in the 150s for over a month now. It's taking close to two months to shed the last 4 lbs in this weight level. This raised a few red flags for me to take a closer look at what might be happening.

I know that my weekends are quite bad and are most often not good/clean eating. Potluck alone would kill any diet. lol. But I try to eat very small portions of what I really want. And I do have one meal where I don't count calories at all. But at times (and it's been happening more often of late), it is more than just the one meal a week!!! NOT GOOD! So I'm recognizing that I need to closely watch my weekend intakes. I need to think and recognize what I really want to have during my treat-meal and then cut it off after. I need need to be consistent in writing my food down esp. during the weekends even if I don't know the caloric value of the meal. This practice will take being conscious of what I eat to another level AND also it serves as a research too... to see what isn't helping and what is definitely working! :) So weekends and food journal will need to be closely guarded in the coming months.

In the physical part of this, I find I'm more comfortable wearing tops that is a bit form fitting and even though my roll still is there and can be visibly seen... I'm ok with that. I know that if I continue to work hard physically and be conscious of my fuel intake then my body will eventually shed the excess garbage that it's storing. lol. I'm proud of the work I'm doing and I know that, like the food, I need to choose this every day.

I'm recognizing more and more as I continue in my journey that this... all this... this journey has to be a choice committed to every single day!