Believe.

I love the sound of the waves crashing and the feel of sand under my bare feet. With my eyes closed, I would stand still and just listen. Then looking up into the sky see a beautiful setting sun, I suddenly feel in awe of how amazing God is and how He's been there for me. I could even feel Him in that moment just being there with me... sharing the moment.

I miss that. I miss the sound of the waves and feel the sand under my feet. I miss feeling the breeze and looking up into the sky and just breathe. I miss seeing sunsets like this one and feel completely at peace. :) I miss walking around my old neighbourhood (which was inside the University) and seeing friends and acquaintances. I miss listening to the birds outside my bedroom window. I miss the quietness and calmness of my life in Michigan.

I haven't completely adjusted to life in a big city, I'm afraid. I'm having difficulty with such a faster pace of life and busyness of living in a much more populated area. The constant noise that surround me is always a reminder that I'm no longer in the Michigan boonies. lol. Oh, how I miss the "boonies"! The masses of people and cars that are everywhere is unnerving! It just seems like no one ever stops here and just breathe... to take in the sunset or appreciate the trees and flowers or to listen to the birds sing. Despite the awesomeness of having family close by, I must say I often feel out of my element. I have yet to wrap my mind around all the changes and process all that has happened in the past 3-4 months. I must say that it has been such a comfort to see that my husband and son seemed to have adjusted fairly easily. Thank you, Lord!

So here's me finally blogging almost 4 months after our move back to Canada. I'm owning up to having feelings of homesickness. Learning to allow myself to be ok with feeling overwhelmed with all the changes. Actually, I came across my husband's cousin's blog and reading her blog gave me courage and encouragement to face up to me feeling this way. A good friend told me that it takes about 3 years to really settle in and I do recognize it takes time but I wish it was a little easier. It's frustrating at times because so much things/places/people are familiar yet so unfamiliar to me. It was like a lifetime ago that we lived here but lived different lives so nothing really is quite the same.

I'm praising God in this storm because He is loving me through it. He is constantly showing me that He cares and that He is faithful in providing for all our needs. He's been helping me slow down and take the time to adjust. He is so incredibly amazing! And as much as I miss Michigan, I wouldn't want to go back because this is where He wants me... us to be. So I'm going to allow Him, in His time, to show me what He has in store for us here and allow Him to show me the way.

I'm leaning and holding onto Him to do what He has promised to do. The God that created the waves of Lake Michigan that I love to listen to and of the beautiful Michiana sunsets is the same God that will sustain and carry me through this season in my life! And eventually I too will love the Toronto sunsets! :)

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11