Hmmmmmmmmm....

I'd like to say I'm back on track but I've been ummmmm... allowing bad habits creep back into my daily living. Like... I need to constantly be putting something in my mouth! I find myself snacking all the time. I know I'm emotionally feeding myself and that I'm not really hungry or need to eat but I can't seem to get myself to stop! At times, I didn't even realize that I was eating again!!!

The rest of the gang that started this Health Challenge dropped out and to be quite honest... now that I don't have accountability to someone... it's easier put off a healthier choice for another day. I'm frustrated and annoyed at the whole situation but that would be only my fault because I guess I was leaning on them to keep me accountable instead of holding myself accountable for ME!!!!!!

Right now I'm trying to get back to making healthier choices... putting back the good habits I used to practice but I find myself resisting all the changes I'm trying to do. I guess it's because I'm trying do it all at the same time (counting calories, going to the gym and picking up where I left off 3 weeks ago or so...). I didn't think it would be too difficult to pick up where I left off but I'm wrong! I'm struggling with simplest of things like having an apple with some nuts as a snack or even just drinking enough water!!!! I've got to break it down again... so as of right now ... for this weekend and coming week, I'm focusing on staying within my 1200-1500 calorie intake and drinking water everyday with some form of physical activity. I won't focus on the what and how long part of the physical activity right now. I just need to spend time on reflecting and being conscious of what goes into my body! My goal is to get into a routine again... to develop my good habits!

The good news is I'm still under 160 lbs... by 0.5 lbs. *sigh* but that's something.

I'm going to commit to just keep pushing through every day!

"Courage (weight loss) doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage (weight loss) is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow."

--- Mary Anne Radmacher

I'm hiccuping... hiccuping BIG TIME!!! ahhhhhhhhhh....

I've fallen off and I can't get up!!!!!!

How did I fall???? well.... Spring Break happened! lol. After entertaining guests, eating out everyday, and coming home with two events to prepare for ... and no gym time... What you get is ... a 4-lb gain and a not-so-clean diet. I was at 156 at one point and now I'm back at 160....

Ok so I've just had a hiccup... a BIG hiccup! BUT still I didn't gain it all back so that's something to be thankful for! Yay God! =)

I sooooo need to get my head screwed on properly again!!! And get my DIARY OUT and start counting calories and journalling again! I need to get that pen writing again!!! Arrrrgggghhhhh. And what is even more frustrating is that I'll be on the road all this weekend to attend a friend's wedding.... need to pack food like crazy!!!!

Pray for me!